PAIGE 282 - CONSOLATION

Mary seemed a bit down after the service today, which is very unusual for her, because her suspension is at a fixed height, and so I asked if everything was ok. She said yes Mom, but Susan won't take my advice. Instinctively I breathed a sigh of relief, but said oh well Mary what did you say? She said well Susan said she was feeling very flat lately, and not enough energy, so I told her what Dylan always tells me, check the PSI. And when you don't have enough energy, you need to increase the angle on the redline tangent. I nodded. I understand Mary, I understand you. Well, you're very good-natured, don't you worry now about that. And then I went to find Susan.

I said hi Susan. She said hi Livi. I said how are things going? She said well you know. Anyway, I'm not going to say everything that she's going through here, but she definitely had some things going on in her life that were pretty hard. She talked for a while about them, and I just listened. I didn't really know what to say, so I just sat with her a while after that. I know from experience sometimes that's all you need. After some time she smiled and said well you know we're just passing through, and we're never alone, thank God. She also said that she had some very good advice given to her about the situation. I said oh no please don't tell me that was from Mary. Susan laughed and said well, that wasn't the advice I thought about, but yes Mary was very sweet trying to help.

We walked back to the parking lot together, and I said hey Susan did you want to catch up mid-week, or Friday even? That's when I don't have work. But you don't have to, I mean only if you want to, I mean I know sometimes when I'm in these situations I just need a bit of breathing space and not people. But you want people around. I mean not too many people, or random bystanders, but some people. But this isn't like a forced suggestion or anything. I know sometimes when people say 'only if you want to' it's more like 'well, but if you say no I'll have second thoughts about our friendship,' but it's not like that. I mean, I'm not saying either that I don't want to catch up with you, it's just that I don't want to be a bother either, but maybe you need someone to force their way into your life also during the hard times, I mean it's hard to know. So, um am I overthinking this?

Yes Livi, you are.

Susan also said catching up would be great. Fry-day it is. I shall get out my wok, and we shall have Teriyaki Mk. II.

- Livi.